Helping teens through first dating experiences Hinde sax live
Being away from the system, on the mission field for 5 years I was able to go back through the experiences of growing up in the system and started to slowly realize how cult-ish it is.
I determined I would not start a church like this, and couldn't do so with a clean conscience before God.
Hope this helps free someone's mind in some way bc then I feel I have done some of Gods true work by helping someone use Gods gift free will aka free thinking.
I determined I would not start a church like this, and couldn't do so with a clean conscience before God. We have 2 kids, and he was telling me that I would be filling his quiver with future children and to populate our church, despite my hyperemesis gravidarum, and dangerous births, severe depression, etc. No job, home all the time being the "helpmeet." He raped me.But the fear of "God'll get you fer leavin' here" and the oppressive loyalty to a man that is literally preached all the time is so stuck in everyone's heads. I am looking for a job, my family needs to get out and we need healing. My husband said in an accusatory tone "she said she felt raped! The pastor said, "well at least he went to you instead of the porn." The pastor's wife nodded. I was happy for the delays, but irritated and anxious about them too. My husband has been into porn and gazing at other women all over the place and being cruel and shallow with me for the entire marriage. I was always told to forgive, submit, don't be bitter. I was at the point that I was on my way out, but not quite out yet.